Quiet life, loud love

Forty, no kids, never married, and before you assume something's wrong with me—I just spent my thirties building a career and taking care of my dad until he passed. Now I'm alone in the house I grew up in near Blue Hills, trying to figure out what my life is for if it's just mine. I work in IT for the state, quiet and steady. I want someone who understands that I'm a slow open, that I need time, that rushing me will backfire. Take me to a quiet dinner somewhere with tablecloths. Talk to me about something other than yourself. I'll surprise you once I feel safe.